This move is both sudden and overdue. I've never been outside the United States... I don't even yet have a passport or the Z Visa that allows me to work in China; I just received the job offer yesterday. I am excited and freaking out... An at the same time very calm about the whole idea.
I am leaving behind a daughter, at least temporarily. She will spend her junior year with my parents and join me later.
In the next three months I will sell most of my belongings, find homes for my three cats, and pack my life into two big suitcases.
Sometimes I think if I could leave right now I would just go; other times I think I want to freeze this moment forever. I want to sit in the dark with the sounds of the fireworks around us, wiggly children on tired laps.